Thoughts of 2009

I feel that God has allowed my journey in Life to twist and turn to lead me to this point. There are many points of change and transition, this one hold a special place because it feels right, and nature. I do not feel forced to choose. I feel blessed and humble. I know that I can place my faith in God and trust my wife for support.

I have set my goal. Now I will enjoy the ride.

X Mas Eve

Today seems like the eve of a new phase of my life. A rebirth, or a dawn has come. So as I step into the future, I will follow my divine lead. I will walk and enjoy the journey as well as the destination.

Namasté,

T M. Spencer

What Passion is ...and What Passion is not?

If you have some age on you and you have experienced several relationships in your quest for love and life, you realize that there are elements in relationships that must be in balance in order for a relationship to work. Ideally, your partner provides that balance.  Many successful relationships are due to this balance.  When this balance is not represented in a relationship, the relationship may become unhinged and it is very difficult to maintain this type of relationship.  In my life I have indulged in relationships that were based strongly on passion without any practicality.

In the past I have indulged in relationships that were more passionate than practice, I always seem to go too far.  Nothing criminal, I assure you, but the relationship just seems to dig deeply into indulgences with little or no practicality whatsoever.  Now love was there and we cared about one another deeply, but our relationship would swing from end to end.  One minute we were blissful and the next we were at each other’s throats.  The passion was out of control.  We could not last, because we did not bring an element of stability to the mix. 

I have learned in life that this does not only apply to romance.  When a person is looking for their responsibility and contribution to this life, you know that you are there if you provide a necessary element.  You position in life fit as a puzzle piece fits. 

It is a simple as that!  Look do you fit into your overall element?

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On my Soapbox 12102008

If you look out the window and you see rain, you will usually prepare for the weather. Why? Because through past experiences or observations you know you must prepare or get wet.Life provides a window view, but we sometimes ignore the signs or "view". The end results are not favorable.

Namaste',

Travis M. Spencer

Meditation Journal 12/10/2008

I haven't meditated in a week now.  I haven't done yoga as well.  I am creating new habits for my work day, so I have eliminated the meditation for a week while I get my schedule running smoother. I do meditate on the bus or metro.   I think that this is a part of my transformation.  I am working hard to be a better man for myself. This progress will automatically make me a role-model and inspiration to my boys, wife, and friends.  

I am seeing a change in my thinking process due to mindfulness.  I continue to be mindful of my FEAR.   My fear manifests itself in my "need to control".   To Believe and trust people is difficult for me sometimes, but I am growing my faith overall.  I am also working on my pride and selfishness.  I used pride for a long time as means to falsely exude self confidence and high self esteem.  Pride does not build self- esteem, it mask it. You cannot build your self esteem, if you cannot see your true self.

 

Namaste'

 

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Meditation Journal 11/26/2008

I am working hard on routine at this point. I have missed days of my practice. I am being mindful of this so I can make sure that I do continue. I continue to enjoy the practice. Mindfulness is the essence of my practice. This practice strengthens my cognitive skills and anchoring my emotional, spiritual, and cognitive development. Meditation provides a bridge. I am more conscious about my deeds, life, and perception. I look forward to more development.