I haven't meditated in a week now. I haven't done yoga as well. I am creating new habits for my work day, so I have eliminated the meditation for a week while I get my schedule running smoother. I do meditate on the bus or metro. I think that this is a part of my transformation. I am working hard to be a better man for myself. This progress will automatically make me a role-model and inspiration to my boys, wife, and friends.
I am seeing a change in my thinking process due to mindfulness. I continue to be mindful of my FEAR. My fear manifests itself in my "need to control". To Believe and trust people is difficult for me sometimes, but I am growing my faith overall. I am also working on my pride and selfishness. I used pride for a long time as means to falsely exude self confidence and high self esteem. Pride does not build self- esteem, it mask it. You cannot build your self esteem, if you cannot see your true self.